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Name: Christiana
Location: Guam, Guam
Birthday: 5/15/1990
Gender: Female

Interests: starwars, harry potter....anything sparkly.
Expertise: Peace is lie. there is only passion, through passion i gain strength, through strength i gain power, through power i gain victory, though victory my chains are broken. the force shall free me.
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Entertainment

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Member Since: 10/9/2004

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Monday, August 23, 2010

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What am I supposed to do when it's all a lie? Where am I supposed to go when it's dark outside? What am I supposed to do when it's all a lie? Lie to me one last time.
( Lie To Me | George )

In about one year you'll have it all figured out. These big city dreams are what you're about. Walking like strangers among these states, only time will tell how long I can wait.
( Big City Dreams | Nevershoutnever )

Some people say that the truth hurts, but so do the lies. Lies ruin peoples' lives. They turn people into monsters. They break peoples' hearts. I don't think anyone would rather be lied to, than told the truth. Because yeah, the truth may hurt, but it's better than believing the lie, and then finding out it wasn't the truth later.

I just don't know if i want to do it anymore, you know? Get close to somebody so they can leave again.

you're best friends because when she smiles, a grin forces itself across your face. No matter how mad you are, when she cries, you instantly feel her pain and want to cry with her. When you look her in the eyes, you know there no one you could ever trust more, regardless of how many broken hearts you've had

Here's to being lied to, to being walked on, used, promised something and fed bullshit. Here's to getting your hopes up and watching them fall time after time after time. Here's to trusting over and over again because you really wanted to believe that he's changed. Now take this as a lesson learned. Let him go and move the fuck on with your life.

Because sometimes people do actually feel that way. Sometimes your life feels like it's caving on on you.
Sometimes people really do feel like they don't want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death.
Saying "I don't want to exist" isn't saying "I want to go die". It's saying "I wish that, for the the time being, i could go somewhere and not have to feel".
I don't think there's anything wrong with that. And if you don't know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

Hey you, living for tomorrow
You sell your dreams for a pocket of change
Hey you, smokin' up your sorrow,
Just pointing fingers at someone to blame.

I'm the kind of girl who feels ugly without makeup and when she has a bad hair day her whole day is bad, who is a lot more self conscious then you would think. The girl who hates her own voice and thinks she's really annoying. The girl who has a huge heart, but gets used a lot. The girl who wants to have real friends but always chooses bad ones. The girl who just wants to be loved by you and accepted unconditionally.

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Monday, September 14, 2009

I keep your picture up.
It's not because I miss you,
it's a reminder not to fall for fast.
Not to trust anyone with this heart of mine
A reminder of how one person
can you hurt you so much.

Because you're young, you're torn between
a world of hate and a world of dreams.
So much to lose, so much to gain,
so much to fight for, so much to change.

A hug can turn your day around.
It's like an emotional Heimlich.
Someone puts their arms around you,
And they give you a slight squeeze.
And all of your fear and anxiety comes
Shooting out of your mouth.
And you can finally breathe again.

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Saturday, May 09, 2009

I don't know why. Maybe it's because you're mad.
Maybe it's because you're afraid. Maybe it's
because you're also a little confused. Maybe it's
because you want to act cool. But whatever the
reason; you're breaking my heart.

i always have this fear that one day you are going to
discover that i'm not as great as you once thought i was.

do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk
to anybody you don't want to smile, and you don't want to
fake being happy, but you don't really know what's wrong?

I felt comfortable around you. When I was with you, I didn't have to be perfect. I didn't even have to try for perfect. You already knew my secrets, and things I kept hidden from everyone else. So I was able to finally just be myself. Which probably shouldn't have been such a big deal; but it was.

All I'm asking is don't make promises you can't keep,
and don't say things you don't mean because in the end,
those things mean everything.

I didn't want to wake you cause I knew I couldn't stay.
I'm looking foward to looking back on these days
and I'm fine, but I'm not okay.

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Thursday, April 23, 2009

	I like to pretend that everything's all right, because when everybody else thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you're not. Listen, the truth is, nothing is gauranteed, so don't be afraid, be alive. - - the truth about forever
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Saturday, April 11, 2009

No matter what, once in your life,
someone will hurt you. That someone
will take all that you are, and rip it
into pieces and they won't even
watch where the pieces land. But
through the breakdown, you'll learn
something about yourself. You'll learn
that you're strong.And no matter how
hard they destroy you, that
you can conquer anyone

In the day by day collision
called the art of growing up,
there's an innocence we look for in the stars.
To be taken back to younger days,
when there was no giving up
on the people we held closest to our hearts.

after all, how many ways can one heart be mangled and still
be expected to keep beating? i lived through a lot, but it didn't
make me feel strong. instead, I felt horribly fragile, like one
word could shatter me.

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